The "Awakening"

Well ... time to catch everyone up on what's been going on.

So ... I took my last dosage of Clomid & wow!  You'd think there were little gnomes inside of me just a working away on my ovaries harvesting those eggs!  Holy cow!  I'm really aware of my body, I need to be especially around ovulation time.  I normally ovulate on my right side.  Well, my left side decided to wake from it's slumber & join the party!  I'm not quite sure what it's issue has been for the past probably year but it's been on a little staycation & just hanging out not really doing anything.  My right ovary has been doing all of the work which I'm sure it's quite bitter about.  Kinda like when I was a kid & my little brother refused to do the dishes when he was told to & I got stuck with them.  You know what I'm talking about.  

So my left ovary is awakened & rumbling around, kinda trying to figure out if it's going to release an egg or not.  I'm tracking my ovulation.  Now this it the FUN part (not) I have to be up by 0700 & basically urinate into a cup (not a coffee cup mind you, it's a ovulation kit so it has it's own little cup & sticks.) & put a stick in, wait 5 minutes & see if there's 2 pink lines that tell me that my hormone levels are up meaning I'm ovulating.  Then when the stick turns that I am ovulating I have to call the on call Dr. & let them know what I'm ovulating.  This has to be before 0730 - I still haven't figured out why. LOL -  This gives us a 12-hour window to do our "thing" in order to catch that egg (or eggs with the Clomid) to conceive.  Our Dr. gave us a 25% chance due to how many egg follicles I have.  I've got 32.  Most women have 11 to 15.  So it's just the actual AGE of my eggs that are the issue.  Ugh (banging forehead against the wall).  Who said 40's are our best??  

Now I'm not sure how many of you know but I'm married to a Paramedic who works 24-hour shifts ... yeah ... that means that if I'm ovulating on one of shift days, that means we may miss our window of opportunity.  Luckily this month he was home.  YAY!  

Here's where it's going to get real & honest ... Sadly the romance was taken out of it.  If you're going through this you have to so your "thing" on cue.  I love my husband & the greatest gift of our love is making a baby but to actually have to do it on a set day then again the next day & a day later just gets kinda old.  I'm just being honest & I know my husband would say the exact same thing.  You've just got to talk about it & remember that you're doing this out of love.   Okay, enough serious stuff!  

So ... back to my over working ovaries!  They're doing they're thing then BAM!  My right ovary releases an egg.  HOLY CRAP!  I'm doubled over!  WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!  LOL ... I actually felt it physically release from the follicle.  It was JUST like those videos we got to see when we were in high school when they separated the girls & the boys and we got to see the "video" about being a woman.  Yeah, it was like that.  It happened three times.  It was truly the strangest thing ever.  Normally when I ovulate I get a little pang & I know it's time but not this gut wrenching pain.  After it was over I could I sort of feel the egg travel down.  It truly was THE strangest thing.  

Youch! X3 shooting out!

 So, my ovaries are feeling like lemons, maybe oranges & if one of the dogs steps on them I'm throwing them off of me.  Okay, NOT throwing them, just gently removing them.  Normally I let them lay on my belly but not since the Clomid.  No puppies on my belly!  Not happening.  I'm still sore!  I'm not sure if that means that it's a side effect of the Clomid & it's just calming down or if I am pregnant.  Hoping the latter of course.  

Went to Target & got a flu shot & got the preservative free one - my Pharmacist loves me so much!  She's looking out for me.  She remembered that I got the Clomid & asked if I had taken it & when I had ovulated & if we had done our "thing" ... her exact words, I swear.  She's so funny.  So I had to drive to another Target to get a preservative free shot but it's better to be safe than sorry.  I'm thankful to her.  She's great.  

So ... ovaries are still in overtime.  I test February 2nd to see if I'm the big P!  I'll let y'all know.  : ) 

I have also heard that there are some readers who are going through what I'm going through.  I hope that my humor isn't offensive & that I'm making you laugh & helping you.  You're ALWAYS welcome to email me & ask any questions you may have.  My email is AmyMullins13@hotmail.com.  This fertility stuff is confusing, emotional, technical & scary.  We all need to stick together so contact me if you need support.  

Much love to you all!

P.S. One last anecdote ... My amazing hubby was laying around with me the other day & I thanked him for putting up with me during this whole ordeal & he said to me "Well it was sortra difficult because to be honest for a few days you were a hormonal raging bitch."  I just laughed.  I think I'm back to normal.  :)